Ting & Gordon on msn.....

ting: how's today's mcg??
gordo: wasted..
ting: huh..why?
gordo: got 2 nb come only..
ting: wat abt non b?
gordo: contacts all put aeroplane
ting: diao...
gordo: sian diao lor..
ting: this kind of ppl are the most irritating kind...
gordo: apparantly they make up a large portion of society..
ting: wahaha, irritating, not responsible !
gordo: i wonder wat sesame street is teaching them
ting: DIAO, okay i tik u are sleepy....


hur!!!
noe y ??
i tik its true eh, y ppl are getting worse??
i rmber my hope sem tcher say ppl are degrading.
i juz cant digest the fact that putting aeroplane is jus so normal..
argh.... thats so rude lar..
cos ppl who put aeroplane simply dun respect that poor fren who waited for them, or rather.. "dun put them in their eye" (translate in chi)
qi si wo le !


wahaha, i feel so much.. cos recently i always kana put aeroplane.
hmmmm oh well.
not abt NB is lidat.. but i am thinking, its character prob eh...
i reali hope that they dun treat their frenz this way mann..


okay God, since i say i wana go extra miles...
i have to learn to digest the fact that putting aeroplane is so so normal.
feel like screaming mann.
wahahaha..


tml cg!
i am the guitarist again!
wahahaha
i tik God is graceful mann.
God, help me k?
my guitar skill is kept within west a 4.
dear cg members, pls dun talk abt me playing guitar in public place ok.
its a disgrace.
wahahahahaha......


My goal...
to RETAIN all my NBs.
HELP ME LORD.

lolx... this is the 3rd post for today liaoz...
juz finish my QT.
i am so refresh.
i reali wana share this blessing mann..


was actually asking God if HE could show me wat it will be like when west a4 become a unit.
for the past few days, God didnt show me...
den i was telling God that i reali wana see how west a 4 will look like when we hit a unit size.
i juz wana be encouraged & motivated.
but... i saw nth...


today, i didnt pray that prayer...
i ask God to speak to me.
i ask God to help me to perservere..
coz i noe myself, when i pray for a certain period of time, i will lose my concentration & start to be distracted.
so i wana be patient & wait for him to speak.


When i start to ask God again...
"God, show me wat it will be like when west a 4 hit a unit size, show me!!"
den again i see nth..
den i ask God.. "y is it when i ask u this, all i see it darkness?"
"does this means that a unit in west a 4 wun come to pass? but i tot its ur will to be fruitful?? GOD!!"
den God show me myself walking...
every one step i take, one light bulb lights up...
i only can see my 2nd step when i took my 1st, saw my 3rd step only when i took my 2nd, saw the 4th step only when i took e 3rd step & the list goes on...


den i understand le..
God ask me to take faith to walk every step.
coz i tend to fear when i had to take a step forward, to take up new challenges.
God is smart, He wun show me how it will look like to have a unit size.
he is basically telling me this..
"u will noe how a unit size in west a 4 look like when u take the step forward.."
this reminds me of abraham..
God told him to go to a land and he will show him.
means abraham will reach the land, even thou he duno where is it, as long as he follow God, den he will reach the destination.
oh well, do u understand wat i am trying to say?
haiz, i tik i am lousy in expressing this in words mann.


this is the word given to me.
"WALK BY FAITH & NOT BY SIGHT"


okay, will not ask God to show me le...
i will take up His challenges & walk by faith.
allowing him to guide me.
as i walk, i blive i am walking towards victory =)

oh btw...
how can i forget this...
God showed me this verse ytd...


If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."
[-Matt 21 : 22-]


as god showed me this verse..
i had many pictures in my mind.
those days when i juz serve as a CL, a new Cl...
the faith i had, the silly things that i have done.
yet, god blesses me alot..
the extra miles that i went...
the little complains..
the Joy..
the fruits.
the tears..
etc...
also i rmber calling dewen almost everyday cos my grp facing some probs.
lolx.


yes God, i wana go extra miles.
i wana have faith in u.
i wana be sincere...
juz do it mann !

sigh...
ting is not feeling well...
panting the whole day, cant breath properly...
spoil my day mann...
this feeling is like 30% of asthma.
its juz like... i have to use alot of energy juz to breath, & i dunno y, i am always tempted to take a deep breath.
oh well....


cousin is staying at my hse...
he is going to stay for one month.
wasnt positive abt it mann
but no choice, cant complain..
coz the hse is not mine..
today is only the 1st day & u can see the irritation in me.
1st`ly, i realised he used my brush for bathing !!
disgusting...
2nd`ly, he didnt flush after using the toilet, the worse thing is... he doesnt aim properly!
omg.... i feel like killing him.
does he has personal hygiene?
dun he have any idea how smelly his urine is?
oh my oh my...
argh.
if this happen again, i am going to lecture him.
teach him wat it is to be when he stays at somebody's hse.


to tik abt it, actually all these is small probz lar...
but with this small little probz, it juz spoil my day...
it juz turn my hse upside down
coz not only me, the whole family juz cant accept his life style mann.
wahahaha, now i understand y ppl say its tough to stay with somebody that doesnt grew up in e same hse with u mann.
i wonder wat it would be like when i get married in future...
oh no, dun bother to imagine!
thats scary.


went to share christ today.
no converts.
haiz.
this cannot go on mann
i wana be fruitful.
God, isnt that ur will ?
but thank God, i had one responsive contact.
she told me she is between A & B..
more towards A.
a good news! =p

hmmmmss...
ytd is a exciting day mann..
all of us are so charged up.
everyone wana do great thing for Jesus...
doing something radical this week.
and also for the next 3 months.
haha
had 3 new cg in west A 4..
lol...
i told them...
"if u wana be a Cl, den act like a CL now, find ur own cg members.."
"i give u guys hmwk, write, wat u gonna do in order to reach a cg size"


haha...
all of them are so excited mann =)
i am glad to see the way they respond.
we are serious to see a unit soon & very soon.


on another hand..
i am quite scared.
cos i noe if i intend to do great things for god, satan will work extra hard.
initially, i feel like juz cruising..
to me, thats e safest, cos i wun face any probs.
but if i cruise, not only i will be stagnant in my spiritual life, my grp's growth will be stagnant as well..
2nd tot, i seriously tik that God deserve the best.
okay ting, u shall get out of ur comfort zone & fight this spiritual war.
cos if God's heartbeat is for the ppl, den my heartbeat should be for e ppl as well.


and true enough...
juz made the decision ytd...
today, i realised that 3 NBs kinda change decision liao.
i feel so defeated.
i reali wana do something abt it.
but wat can i do arh??
okok, 1st, i will pray for them.
once i prayed, i already won half of e battle le..


ok God, u noe that i am so fearful now.
but but but
in your word, there are so many wonderful promises.
i reali wana claim it eh
fear is the opp of faith.
FAITH !


sometime probs can be good lar..
coz thats the time when i grow the most
experience God the most
and learn the most...
also, appreciate the ppl the most.
=)

many ppl walk in & out of my life...
sometimes, it reali make me wonder....
who will walk into my life & nv find the exit door?
i dun need alot of frenz, i juz need one that is committed to e friendship.
wahahaha... isn't that true??
why want many frenz if none of them are committed?


wouldnt it be nice if there is someone whom i can pour out to?
it would be better if i can pour out without considering twice or even 3 times.
actually, the abv sentence means alot, it includes trust, understanding even without much explaination etc etc etc...
dun bother to name all, if i do, i tik it gonna take a long time


yeah, i cant deny that God places alot of ppl in my life..
i reali thank HIM for that,
its juz that i cant tell when they are walking out of my life again.
opps, btw its not abt pity-ing myself lar.
i reali feel okay, i am juz wondering. =)


argh, today's cg's worship is a disaster lar!
u noe why?
i am the guitarist cum worship leader.
if u noe me well, i am not a multi-task person!
i duno wat am i strumming when i pray sia.
den the comment given is.... the guitar was too loud!!!!
hahahahaha


at the end of the worship, God place a word in my heart.
initially i feel like ignoring God.
i was like...
"God, i already have prob praying in toungues while playing guitar, u still put words in my heart? are u kidding? are u sure??"
den at the end, i still share the word to them lar...
i was like... "aiya God, i wack lar, if anything goes wrong.. i duno ok!!"
haha
den as i share, i can sense that tunes are not coming out frm the guitar, its noise!!
i cant stand it, i stop playing, & concentrade praying instead.
oh well... CRY !
next week, i shall ask cindy to lead liao.
lalalalaa =p

God.... WHY??


Why why why why why why why why why why why why why???

hur !! tell u k, the ting now is a different ting!!
i am so so excited for the gospel now.
as in, i nv felt this way b4, the urgency, the everything.


ok now i am stuck in words, i dun how shall i put it..
i seriously tik "excited" is the best word to decribe me
in my mind, i keep wondering, wat am i afriad of?
the most, kana reject, kana some scoldings frm the contacts...
ya!! den wats so scary rite??
if i am so convicted that cheeze hot dog is nice, how much more muz i be convicted of the gospel??
and and and....
when i share abt Jesus, i should expect them to receive God & not doubt.
okok, yes!!


this week, i muz share to 5 ppl abt Jesus.
i cannot allow fear to cripple me coz who knows wad will happen after i share?
pls lar eternal life eh.
one thing i am super convicted is that if i have the key to eternal peace,
eternal joy & etc.. i cant keep it to myself!!
u noe arh, when i saw my frenz got alot of money & yet they dun wana lend it to others who are in need, i am super disturb.
i kept thinking that they are self-centered.
oh gosh, come to tik abt it, if i keep the ans of life to myself, i am zillion times more self-centered den them ya?
cannot cannot~
I MUST TELL THEM ABT JESUS


ok thats abt it.
i dun wana say, i wana do.
now i have flashing image of ppl & me sharing the gospel.
come on tingting, u can do it!!
FEAR cannot cripple me!


oh ok, btw i am re-taking my os.
juz coz my family cant afford private sch.
oh well, i should juz stop thinking that my daddy is quite rich.
hahahahaha


kinda reluctant to re take.
coz i hate the process of studying
the commitment is mad-ness!
haiz. but yes God.
i shall not look back


i blive wateva happen, there muz be a purpose
it might create an impact down the road.
i duno how to say.
but juz wana say that i wana trust God lor
as in, i noe God has the best thing for me
ya.
ok, i am going to study HARDER



oh well, i met a flasher...
okay shall not elaborate it
but yea u noe...
it was gross!
wat a gruesome sight!

alrite i'm back =) hehe
WARNING this entry is going to be long.
oh well... i am a detailed person.. (dun blive? check it out!)


DAY ONE-thurs.


met at kranji MRT & guess wat? Joyce & me were the 1st one to reach.. wahaha!!
oh well, took air plane, it was budget airline.. ok, i was reali budget. hahahaha!!
i was super amused by the quality.. lolx.. most of them were sleeping in the plane except for me,ruiyong,justin & elise.. we were playing dai dee.. haha..
reached sibu & the air port was reali 'amazing' haha.. reali !
shall not elaborate it thou =p



met the ppl there & we went to charles's place to prepare for the cg later on..
initially i am suppose to lead charing but the ppl there took over my role..
i was kinda relieve..
helped joy with the P&W & it was in chi.. hehe
oh ya, joy can sing well =)



reached the cg venue..e place look reali warmth.. & the ppl there give me a wamth feeling too!
the cg was awesome!
i reali tik that they are a bunch of excited ppl.
can say that the whole cg was a successful one bcoz the ppl there are enthusiastic.



Elise & rui yong taught abt the importance of cg..
while they were teaching, God prompted me to share the testimony abt wat i faced last jan in my cg & how my cg overcome it & grew frm den..
when i noe that God prompted me, initially i am reali scared, not very sure if i should share, coz it was reali impromptu..
so, i tried to hint dan & ask if i should share, i tik he got wat i am trying to say & he agreed.
phew...... my heart was beating fast & yay, i shared.
alright, it was reali a un-prepared one & thank God, it turn out wasnt too bad =)



after cg, the ppl lingered ard & fellowship, they keep giving us food to eat..
oh my, i am super bloated!
but the food was reali nice..
haha so funny... we are all keeping a look out for e "home-made kueh" eelee was talking abt..
but apparently, most of the kuehs are bought & not home-made. haha
ate the kuehs with peace...... lolx



was reali tired after everything & after the evaluation.
i slept............
WAIT ! u tik i am going to preceed to e 2nd day? NAHZ.
haha
something happen during sleeping....
i think i had sleep walk.. I THINK !
i rmber walking to the toilet to pee & i also rmber that i went into a room which is so different frm where i was sleeping.. knew that i went to the wrong room & quicking close the door.
den... i forgot wat happen after that....



e next day when i woke up, i tot i was dreaming....
but the funny thing is, e light wasnt off when we were asleep.. but it was off the next day..
& i suddenly rmber me in my dream, i went to off the lights after pee-ing..
so so so.. in conclusion.. i did woke up in e wee hours & did stupid things that i dun rmber..
oh well, thats so creepy! =p


DAY TWO-fri


woke up early in e morning.. went to breakfast & off to sarikei !
the journey was longer den we expected, coz the bus broke down.. haha!!!
shawn & thaddeus was making a fool there lar, haha...
dun reali noe how to explain wat they did but it was reali hilarious..
i tik e trip would be cold without them, they r juz so funny....



reach sarikei, at e bus terminal, me & thaddeus was craving for ice-cream.
wanted to buy but the uncle was super attitude.
so, decided not to buy frm him.. haha
me & thaddues planed to buy many ice-creams frm the other shop, den purposely walk pass e uncle over & over again to pissed him off..
but too bad, there r no other shops that sell ice-cream..
nvm den.... haha



reached e church, & we have no time to slack & crap anymore....
coz we have to rehearsal for the cg later on..
we are supposed to lead everything..
frm charing all e way to teaching...
eh, i reali wana say that we did a great job!
i am truely amazed of how God can use us.. really !
Rui yong, shawn & dan lead p&w in chi...
as i look ard, ppl reali worship God & can see that they are ministered...
this sight reali melted my heart.



oh ya, i taught abt armor bearer..
1st time holding a mike, standing infront a stand & i am pretty nervous.
but others commended that i look confident & i taught well....
phew.. i feel so good mann
but i muz reali say that its God..
i am not trying to be cliche, but its reali God doing his work..
let me tell u y... firstly, i wasnt reali looking at my notes.. wat i say wasnt reali according to wat i prepared & it turn out well..
so if its wasnt God, den who's doing the work?
definitely not me! DUH?? haha



after everything, there is this 16 year old gal, named yu mei told me that God reali spoke to her thru this teaching..
& when i heard this, i cant help but to thank God again...=)
its God, its reali God !! =)



e church has 2 rooms, so 1 rm for e gals, another for e guys.
but u noe wat?
there are big 'xiao qiangs' in da room !!!!
not only one okay!
den the whole place has lotsa beetles...
oh well, thats gross.
end up, all of us sleep in the main hall.
its kinda fun thou it was scary.. wahahaha
e 3 monkeys, thaddeus,shawn & rui yong were having pillow fights.. (again)
interesting to "watch" them playing...=)
oh yes.. i had a last min role.. i have to lead chairing in the service!
oh my !



& & &... tell u wat...
we nearly stone rui yong to death.
we video down the cg, where-by e leading of p&w & me teaching...
he accidental re-format his cam & everything was gone!
rest in peace bro! haha
oh well, we came up with a "violence church series.." =p


DAY THREE-sat


woke up early in e morning.. much earlier den e past 2 days..
not for breakfast but for the telematch. Haha
e telematch was so different frm wat I've imagined. Lolx



anyway, after that all of e s'poreans have to share testimonies to bless them..
I am assigned to share my conversion testimony..
I reali hope that the testimonies will reali bless them.



Went shopping after that, oh well, nth to buy!
Haha! its expected anyway!
Went back to the church, took out the mattress & slack there.
Tell u, I reali enjoyed the slacking time, as in the sharings,e crappings & spending time together…
Reali can see the other side of e ppl..
Duno how to say, in short, I reali enjoyed myself =)
Took a short nap & we have to get ready for the prayer meeting



Wow, the prayer meeting was awesome!
The faith level is there..
E hope s'pore which is my team prayed for 750 in youth..
I am so convicted to see 750 youths in spore mann!
After prayer meeting, we start to be busy again..



Oh btw, we clean the church for them mann!
But I wasnt part of it..
Firstly I am sensitive to dust, secondly I am damn afraid of the bugs.
So dan assigned me & Justin to write e script for e mini-drama for e svs.
So busy! Coz I also have to prepare my role as a chair person for svs. Haha
Had full-dress rehearsal & den ZzzzZzz..
Oh btw, the drama was not bad ok! Haha


DAY FOUR-Sun


Oh my oh my.. I am so nervous for e service!
I am chairing!
To make things worse, I had tummy ached.
Haha.. overall, it was okay lar,
Except in some parts I screw up a bit.. opps!
Wasnt too happy abt it.. sighs..
But it was a good experience thou=)
& yes, after lunch, we set off back to sibu!



The bus look so ugly lar, but the driver super 'zai' reach sibu in an hour plus.
Went to ling na's hse & all of us gather to chit-chat again..
I truly enjoy chatting with them =)
I only rmber the room only have me,joy & dan..
I dun reali rmber where the rest are..
I tik they were playing with ah beng..
Ah beng is a cute dog & he is a coward. Haha
Whenever he saw stangers, he will bark so loud & he will hide..
So,I always love to scare him by running towards him.. haha!
Oh well, I am a sadist =p



Had dinner in ling na's hse with the youth in sibu.
They reali have e spirit to learn eh..
They 'bom-bar-ded' me with many questions that I lost my voice after all e Q&As..
And one of them told me that my testi (e one that God prompted me to share in day 1) bless her a lot & her grp was facing the same prob.
Oh my God !!
God is juz too real mann!
Thank God, I am truly blessed to noe that god used me to bless others!
I feel so fulfilled, I am reali blessed, I love e ppl there mann!
Truly.. =)


DAY FIVE-Mon


Yeah, woke up & after preparing, I went to scare ah beng again.. hahaha!
We met the sibu youth for breakfast and went to their church.
Hmmms, we are suppose to teach them how to lead games & praise, practical !
B4 everything, I ask joy to pray for my throat.
It’s a hindrance for me to communicate & giving my best spirit due to e discomforts.
U noe wat? I was healed !!
I got my voice back within 2 mins.. yay! =)



We played games & all of us enjoyed it a lot.
For the last game, we played 'king of e jungle'
For ur info, this is a sarbo game.
We planed to sarbo ah B..
Oh btw, he is a interesting guy, & obviously he is a good target to sarbo.. hehe
The thing is, the game wouldnt be a successful one if we intend to sarbo ppl who is not 'ra-ra'..
Haha, apparently the sarbo was a success =)
We ended e game with a good laugh at ah b.. lolx!
Had praise after that, lead by Thaddeus.. hey he lead well!! =)
Can u imagine him holding a mike on stage, jumping ard singing in chi? =)



After that dan was sharing abt how to follow up on NBs & den we went into groups for discussion..
They literally squeeze us dry & we literally vomited wateva we noe..
I reali love their spirit =)
Everything ended well, & I mus say this, I feel so satisfy =)
Went for lunch, nth much to eat so I decided to eat beef noodles.



Was actually despising beef until I ate it..
Now I noe y eelee & da cindy loves beef noodles. Lolx.
Den rui yong let us try his food, which was peanut butter prata.
Spore dun have this, it was so nice lar!
We made him order for us & he tries to speak chi with eng slang.
Haha.. so funny..
Shared the prata with Thaddeus & yay, I tik we should copy the recipe & sell it in spore. Haha
Can make lotsa money mann!


the sibu ppl wanted 2 ppl to follow them to hse visitation & therefore, joyce & rui yong went.
E rest of us went ling na's hse to rest & I played dai tee with e of e hope sibu bros & dan.
After that e bros went Cs axcept for Thaddeus & dan.
They came back with a smile coz it was damn cheap.
RM1 for more den a hour. A great deal ?



B4 they came back,many happening stuff happens!
We were chit-chatting & den dan fell asleep.
Den u noe wat? The crazy side of joy appeared…
She put tooth-paste on dan's head!!
Can u imagine it was joy?? Lolx.
Haha ok this is creepy…when dan woke up, he actually repeated wat we say & he noe that we are making fun of him! Haha



We went for a wonderful dinner..
The food was really nice!
Had a good chat with xiao qi(e leader there) & Thaddeus =)
Slept late, coz we had a gals talk .. except for joyce.. coz she is snoring loudly den.
LoLx
We enjoyed the gals talk, it made us appreciare each other more.. =)
Yeah & also thank u dan!!! So touch that he bought me & rui yong strapils.=)


DAY SIX-Tue


Nth much, went to disturb ah beng for the last time.
Went to shop & I bought a wallet.
Nice & cheap =)



Went to Charles's place to eat & all of us were so reluctant to leave them.
E nite b4, the guys had a bet.. they bet that either me or joy will cry..
Haha but nope! We did not..
Juz feeling sad.. lolx.
Can see tears in ah-b's eyes..
Frm this we can see that e past few days with them was a memorable one..



Went to airport.. cant bear to leave.. hehe
& oh yes..
I ride on a motor bike k!
1st time in my life.. hehe
So cool lor! =p
& Home sweet home ard 9.30pm =p


All in all, thou this entry is long.. but wat I learn, my experience with God are beyond words. I cant list all that I went thru in this mission trip.
E fun,e joy,e people..
Love them!
And dan is reali a good leader..
I got a feeling that I will miss the team lor..



After this, I experienced God in a real way, reali depended on him & since it's a honey moon with Jesus, I realized that I cannot do without him! I am stronger in his word and got to noe that he is always there for me.
Thou I cant name any specific thing I've learned, but e experience with God was awesome!

argh.....


I NEED PEACE !!!


i am "bom-bar-ded" by many many many stuffs to do.
and many many questions abt my sch, my course.
argh, i ignored =p
sorry! i didnt mean to be "dao" but i juz hate the prccess of answering & explaining & listening to the comforts.
i dun need that.
i juz need practical advise. wahaha
thank God, i dun have to lead P&W le.. wahaha


i juz rmber that i haben do my 2 pages essay!!!


presentation!!!


teachings!!!


hahahahaha.......


so busy... but fun ok!


but... i need peace =)


okay.


P E A C E


priince of peace....


euu rr my priince of peace!


lurve ya Jesus =)


i reali reali need peace & self-control.
pray for me. =)
thanks!

wow after this entry... i have to go & "mug" liao !
busy busy busy
its kinda tiring... but.. i enjoy!
i tik its juz so exciting
have to do research for tml's presentation..
abt the prayer life of christ.
and tell u.. i haben prepare!!
later going prepare my chi teachings for e mission trip!
COOL !


hehe..
i noe wat am i suppose to do in the mission trip le..
i am suppose to teach a lesson in CG..
lead P&W in Cg..
and .. and.... and..
P&W in Service!
omg !!!!!
but actually their service & Cg ard the same size lar.. haha
scary.... but exciting. haha


i am truely amazed by how God can use ppl.
heard many testimonies abt how God can use ppl to share His love despite language difficulties
to say the truth, my mandrin very 'ja-pa-lang" one..
cant imagine how god can use me to encourage & impact the ppl there...
haha... actually not as if my eng very powerful lar...
infact, its 'powderful' yups
wahaha
so it will be a challenge too if i were to go 'ang mo' country for a mission trip.
so ok God, i will stay faithful to singapore.
coz spore's language is 'ja-pa-lang'
it suits me =)
bleahz!


i am so excited..
i cant wait to get my schedule in the mission trip soon & to pack my bag soon!
haha
i cant wait...
noe that it will be tiring.. but its a 1st time to me.
hey now i noe quite a number of chi christian jagons le ok!
wahaha


went to chi service juz now...
tell u, their worship got rap de ok!!
haha
i am amazed.
wahaha
so funny .. but cool also. =p

hmmms... things went well today
except for steph didnt turn up in the end.
sigh, we were like... stuck in 6 since long time ago.
but praise God, we have 9 ppl le, its juz some little probz.
but can solve de lar =p


hmmm... if u were to ask me if i am feeling ok..
i reali duno how to ans.
i am ok but yet it seems not ok.
i reali duno.
juz feel that my future abit uncertain..
cannot see wats ahead me.. duno who will i be in future, wat am i doing in future..
so i am now waiting.
i will trust as i wait.
coz God will open a door for me.


i tik its coz the 'dunno' feeling i have..
i can neither smile or cry.
i am stagnent in feelings.
wahaha.
is that the word to describe?
=p


i reali pray that i can get thru my DAE.
God pls... pls !
if not MDIS would be my choice.
but but... DAE is better lar.
hehee...


i will walk... thou i duno wats ahead me, i will walk by faith.
anyway i noe God will take care of me.
so ok lar.
i will entrust to God.


for now, i start to doubt..
did i reali give my best in os?
but actually no point thinking abt it now lar.


that open door.
i am looking.
i am waiting
i an trusting =)


hey read matt 11:28-30


28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

oh my...
stop asking me abt wat course i am getting in.
ever since the O level results' release, ppl are always asking me
haha
den i have to tell them abt JAE, DAE blah blah
ma fan...
den now, i have to tell them i cant get into any course via JAE.
den they will ask me.. "how?"
haiz if i noe, i wun be so "fan" now.
ok, so dun ask ok!!!
if i noe le, i will naturally tell u guys


wats running thru my mind now..
haiz i also duno.
sianz.
i tik is all the private school's names..
& the fee.
damn ex.
duno how to tell papa arh
so for now, pray hard that i can be successful in my DAE.
i am waiting for DAE results.
ya, pray pray pray.
God pls make a way for me.


GOd will make a way.
yupps


SigHs.....

wow wat a day...
dun reali like my today..
haha...
but ting...!! juz sit down & talk to God ya?
hahaha..


duno y eh, reali duno y.
like suddenly i feel that something is bothering me..
but i duno wats bothering me...
is that mood swing?
omg, i hope not...
but thank God, i manage to control my emotions.
thats one thing that i can rejoice abt.. wahaha
at least none noe that i am feeling wierd.
hmmms, good.
But i wana grow in another level, no more mood swing!
but i feel that its more difficult not to have mood swings den to control the emotions.


went CL activation meeting..
haiz i am late.. =(
1st, i didnt realise that the bus stop frm jess hse was 15 mins walk away, i tot only downstairs.
so dumb, didnt ask properly.. den traffic jam.
argh...
double haiz...
ting need to have time management!!
ok set, i muz be more time concious..


oh ya, yes!
so inspired by shirls.
haha
i agree with her eh...
since we run the race, den we muz win, if not run for wat?
ya, i dun wana end up wasting my time mann.
okay, i will give my best, not try.. is give!


decided not to get a new hp le..
2 months later den buy.
coz 2 mths later, my plan will mit 21 mths le.
den can buy phone at a cheaper price.
okok, 2 months seems far, but ok lar, very fast de.
hmmms


going to mission trip in a week time
i am so excited!
cant imagine me teaching chi.
ok... shall pray hard.
haha
now i am wondering........
wats abraham in chi? den the bible got those funny funny names rite? haha
hmmmm challenging.
lol


ting wants to grow.
i wana learn to love despite differences.
learn to look at ppl's positive side & not the negative.
learn to appreciate ppl.
ya....
dangerous prayer.. haha
but okay, God.... help me =)

i tik we are a bunch of funny creatures.
hahahaha
today when one of my classmates is hope sem was presenting his 5mins presentation.
He said something lidat...
"we tend to place prayers as the last resort....."
let me elaborate..
we tend to be like this...
when things dun go well, we will try all kinds of ways or strategies to solve...
if dun work.. den we will start to kneel b4 God & seek help..
and when he said this, i tik it kinda make sense eh....
wow why like that!!!??!
cannot... prayer should be the 1st thing that we should do when things dun go well.
i mean not as in ritual lar, its all abt dependency on God.
all abt acknowledging God is in control =)


was reminded abt my relationship with God.
i dun tik there is any relationship that is build upon doings.
coz relationship is all abt love and commitments =)
our begin is wat God reali concern & not doings.
'doings' are juz the outcome of 'beings'
means, its bcoz we love God so much & we noe that He love us, thats is y we serve.
serving God or rather ministry are meant to draw us closer to God..
but y its seems to be another way round?
it always seems that ministry always tired us & therefore our relationship with God seems further & further....
but its not suppose to be like this!
wait..... i guess the only reason y we are tired is when we forgot abt the 'beings' & focus too much on 'doings'.
hmmmm... chim?
haha
shall not make it too complicated.
all in all, serving God is abt the RELATIONSHIP with Him, not wat u do.
yupps.


oh well, papa dun seems keen to buy a new hp for me.
but my hp was reali spoilt =(
but ok lar, will see how.
i noe tat i had more den enough...
yup.